14 August 2011

God does not work in time limits or deadlines.

I want to be totally open and real.  There are some things that I have just been laying before the Lord in prayer.  He is so wonderful and amazing.  I have given him my life and my future.  I have asked that He would align my will and desires with His.  He has given me a peace and a faith to know that He is going to lead me in the right direction.  At first, I was worried.  I was thinking, “what if I miss something and miss out on His amazing plan.”  Then I realized He says in His Word that He will guide me.  He has men’s hearts and “turns them where He wishes (Prov. 21:1).”  He is my Shepherd who will lead me and be beside me telling me what direction to go.  I am waiting on Him.  But man is it hard sometimes.  I have waited for the past few years, so I know how to wait, but then the future was never so close!  Now the “future” is here right before me – and I am still waiting to hear from Him.  I know is He is going to guide me.  I have no doubt about that.  It is just hard to be in that spot of not knowing where to go or where He wants me.  I am sure many can relate, but I have to admit its kind of difficult when you are currently in that spot.  I wonder what Abraham was feeling when obeying the Lord meant that “he went out, not knowing where he was going (Heb. 11:8).”  Sometimes the Lord does not reveal His plans till the last possible second.  I think I am in that category.  But there is no greater category to be in than obeying the Lord.  Yes, it is incredibly difficult sometimes, but I have the hope that He has amazing things.  I am in amazing situations right now.  I did not know what this trip held for me.  I do not know what He has after, but I know this is where He wants me.  It is unreal that I am actually here and doing things I was only dreaming about a few months ago.  I do not know the time frame or where God will continue to lead me.  I just know I want to live every moment giving witness to His greatness.  Pray that my life is a living example of Him.  Pray that I am open to whatever He wants.